mirror, mirror.

Posted on July 8th, by mb in intention. 10 comments

in true virgo fashion, i can be a big ol’ critical pain in the ass.

i can be hard on those closest to me. i jump to conclusions. my mind is a very busy illusory machine.

that being said, because i know this about myself, i keep the reins on my mind quite tight. i probably ask myself, “is that true?” twenty times a day, but when the acupuncture, the green juice and the sweaty yoga practice has been pushed onto the back burner, my inner demons rear their ugly heads.

after a challenging trip home, i had a weird week. i was feeling really critical of everybody but me, and that downward spiral was putting me in an epically shitty mood. so friday i picked up the phone and called my mom who entertained my bullshit for about ten minutes then promptly sent me an email:

“actually you were part of the reason the weekend was rough. so get over yourself. embrace the greatness about your life.”

a few years ago that email would’ve sent me into a tailspin but as soon as i got it i thought, yesyesyes you are so right.

i was missing the beautiful moments with my husband, with my family; the time spent in my childhood home; the afternoons in nature.. and it was all because i was caught up on a few shitty interactions.

sometimes our mirror becomes dirty and we cannot see ourselves or others clearly. in yoga we call this avidya. it’s important to question our view constantly because it’s distorted. the exact same thing could happen to you and i, and we’d likely have wildly different stories and experiences.

donna farhi likens deconstructing these barriers to cleaning the windshield on one’s car so that one can see the beauty and avoid the potholes while driving.

where does this critical inner nature come from? how can i feeling so loving and compassionate then the critic rears its ugly head? i think the only way to lessen it is to love it. to understand that it’s from a place of fear. to understand that it’s another reason to look even deeper within.

everything that’s happening is just simply happening. we are the ones that choose to attach a story to absolutely everything. when our story isn’t inspiring, it’s time to look in the mirror. it’s time to make a shift.

10 Responses to “mirror, mirror.”

  1. laurie crow says:

    when you find yourself in times of trouble….remember the beatles words of wisdom…LET IT BE……..i often have to remind myself this or else it just builds up. Sounds like you got a handle on it anyway..:)

  2. Sophie says:

    Beautiful, MB. “Our story” is effin powerful and we must always always know it’s our own story. Good or bad. We create our story one day at a time and have the ability to shift that story every minute of every single day. It’s power. Going “home” for me is always one of the most bittersweet, intense, love-hate times. I’m affected for weeks after I return. Get back on the yoga-healthy-inward path and you’ll be back before you know it. So much love xx

    • mb says:

      thank you sophie. so true. just had my green juice, went to acupuncture and am now heading to yoga! love you.

  3. Ashley says:

    love this, so much truth. love and miss you tons!

  4. Ashley says:

    So true. Beautifully written as always, MB.

  5. Stacey says:

    I too am a Virgo and I feel your pain! Spent this previous weekend being a big ole pain in the ass to my boyfriend and getting frustrated at him about something so miniscule.

    Do you think there’s hope for us yet?

  6. Krista says:

    Same can be said of Scorpios! I hear you and thanks for the reminder darlin!

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