the messy.

Posted on May 23rd, by mb in intention. 14 comments

the past weekend i spent 14 hours learning an abridged but powerful version of the handel group method, hearing people’s stories and hesitantly voicing my own. i walked in nervous. i knew i was going to get called on my shit. and it was exactly why i signed up for the course.

you know why i was going to get called on?

because i’m not always truthful.

the chai lattes, the bare feet, the farmers’ markets, my love and my pup – all of these things are true, and they all make my heart skip a beat. but sometimes in the poeticizing of my daily life, something gets lost and that’s that my life isn’t always seen through rose-colored lenses.

a few things i’ll go ahead and admit publicly – i can be very defensive. i drink too much wine when indulging. i have a hard time maintaining a disciplined yoga practice. i am a bit OCD. i’ve hurt the people i love the most time and time again.

whoa, you know what? that felt really good.

just as i declared when i was at the summit: “by standing in my truth i inspire.”

i am committed to that. i believe living a truthful, bliss-filled life is possible, but sometimes very, very messy, and that’s okay. it’s part of the deal. the dark with the light; the beautiful and the ugly. without one, i wouldn’t be the other.

and that’s rad.

14 Responses to “the messy.”

  1. Thanks for sharing.

    Love it. Embracing the darkness. And the light.
    i often say to myself: welcome – to the DARKside.. (again)


  2. Allyson says:

    :: brave and beautiful, through and through ::

  3. Ashley says:

    amen to that. every word. i love you!

  4. greta says:

    this is really lovely and relatable…thanks for sharing both sides!

  5. Krystin says:

    Love this MB! A little flash-back to Landmark ;) A reminder that I too need to be true with myself and others.

  6. Boneza H. says:

    Thanks for this…I really needed to read this post. It’s so easy to live vicariously through others and assume it’s all unicorns and rainbows all the time for everyone else except you! There’s no such thing as perfect and we are all human…have a great weekend MB!

  7. matty says:

    i’m proud of you and your writing!

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